Jul 13, 2010

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A Wee Bit O’ Celebration

I’ve been wanting to introduce someone for a while. This is a man who has been known to singlehandedly bring me to a place of actual serenity just by entering a room.

Do you ever think to yourself, Man, I hope there’s a boy in school right now who’s going to keep going for years and years, adding a specialty to his specialty so that he’s specifically trained for this one disease I’ve never even heard of that’s so rare the number of people who get it every year is under one thousand, because someday I’m going to get that disease, and I’ll need somebody who knows about it to see me through?

Yea, neither did I.

And then I got that really rare disease, and the doctor who diagnosed it tried to refer me to a specialist in Omaha, Nebraska, who ended up being on medical leave, and that guy’s office referred us to this guy, Dr. Rosenthal, in Overland Park, Kansas, and suddenly I was so glad some guy was going to school for a really rare disease back when I didn’t even know that disease existed.

I was really scared to meet Dr. Rosenthal. I was so scared of my Cancer, so overwhelmed by it, that I was pretty sure the best a physician of it could do when he saw me was to shake his head. I’m so sorry this disease is going to kill you, the head shake would say, but if you’re lucky you’ll get to live for a while with one arm first. I know, it’s horribly morbid and pessimistic, ungrateful even – because, believe me, if losing my arm is what it would have taken to keep me alive…

So before Dr. R. entered the room on that first visit, I worked myself into a pessimistic frenzy. It was just about to burst out of me in a thunderstorm of terror, certain to overtake  al the loved ones with me in the room, when he walked in. And I swear to you, he didn’t really even say a word before his calm spoke to my storm and said, be still. And I was.

After he spoke, both his calm and his confidence rubbed off. And for the first time since my diagnosis I felt a little bit of fight. Maybe I could beat this. And whether I could or not, this is the guy I wanted with me to the end.

Dr. Rosenthal is one of three Jewish people I know very well, and the other two are fictional. He knows pop culture (Dr. R. referenced the famous Serenity Now episode of Seinfeld when I first met him, he’s recommended movies on our visits there, and he can keep up with sports talk even though he really just goes to the games for the food.) He makes jokes, isn’t afraid to marvel at his own handiwork (“See? You don’t need a deltoid muscle”), and he saved my life five years ago today when he removed the tumor in my right shoulder thankfully hours, days, maybe weeks – we can’t know for sure – before it managed to spread to any other part of my body.

On Friday, Dr. R. saw me again, and he told me I’m officially, technically, and for all intents and purposes – including the taking out of a life insurance policy, which I should be able to do now without a hitch – CURED.

And I felt so grateful to God, so grateful for life, and so grateful for a boy who went to school.

  1. Hurray!
    I think this calls for much more than a wee bit o’ celebration!
    Yey for Dr. Rosenthal, yey for you for trusting and fighting, and yey for God, who loved you through it all.
    Yey!

  2. This was one of the revelations that surprised me the most when we were in the NICU with Claire for so long. I realized how desperately I needed these strangers bustling around checking monitors, adjusting medicines, researching options, and generally being good at what they do. They had sacrificed years of their lives in classrooms and internships, were probably still paying off ridiculously high school loans, and all of it added up to a win for our family. I felt ashamed for ever dismissing secular work as anything but sacred.

    And stories of gratefulness like this have to be a benefit to Dr. R., too, because I know he doesn’t beat the Beast every time. We are humbled that ours was one of the happy endings.

  3. Happy ending indeed! God is so gracious! I love this news Serenity…you GO girl :D

  4. Yes and Amen. To all of it.

  5. YES! Hallelujah, and thank God for Dr. R. and people like him.

  6. Caroline OBrien says:

    Oh Frabjous Day! Calloo, Callay!
    (See, I can make literary references too! :) )
    This is wonderful news Seren, thank you for sharing it with us,
    and I hope you had Dr.Rosenthal lay down on your blanket so you could trace his whole self!

  7. I am right there in that gratefulness corner with you. CURED!

  8. Carol York says:

    Such happy news! Yeah!!

  9. Andrea Cerretti says:

    Isn’t it amazing how God prepares our futures, has it all taken care of, long before it is upon us, overwhelming us, and even feeling overtaken by it? Isn’t it wonderful how He brings the right people together at the right time in the right place after years and years of preparation? Isn’t it amazing that God knew just which Dr. would be perfect for Serenity when she was walking down this road to come along beside her and guide her along, just like a little bit of Jesus wrapped up in the flesh?
    Isn’t God WONDERFUL????!!!!!
    Yes, if we really think about it……..OH YES! Yes He is!

  10. Ahhhh, this is the soul-satisfying good stuff. Doing the happy dance with you!

  11. I cannot imagine this world without you in it. If Dr R is who I thank because he is the boy that went to school and sacrificed personal time and learned so much I imagine his brain was on overload, then Dear Dr R, THANK.YOU.SO.MUCH.

  12. Wow! You know how you should celebrate? You should move to NYC! You already love it and there are loads of fabulous Jewish people there!

    Congratulations to the wonderful Serenity, the girl who lived. And Hats off to Dr. R for being an all around good guy and mega-genius.

  13. I’ve long wanted to see Dr. R — and to see YOU standing there with him — a picture of health and wholeness! It is a wonderful day indeed! I celebrate with you Seren! And I celebrate — YOU!

  14. Serenity says:

    Thank you, Wonderful People, for celebrating with me. I love all your thoughts here. I’m especially intrigued by Alison’s suggestion to move to my new favorite city. :) And, Felic, I so relate to your thoughts about the sacred and secular. I had to smile a little when Andrea called my Jewish doctor a little bit of Jesus in the flesh! I think Dr. R. and I definitely see eye to eye on a lot of things, though, when it comes to God and just how precious life is. I love Dr. R. and I’m glad all of you have met him now.

  15. Andrea Cerretti says:

    remember Serenity, Jesus was Jewish :)

  16. WhoooHooooo!!!! 5 years cancer free!! I am thrilled for you and for your family, Serenity. It was wonderful to finally ‘meet’ your doctor!!

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